Rejoice always; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. I Thess. 5:16-18

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

just some thoughts

I've been meaning to update this for such a long time, but I hardly ever get on my computer anymore and my cell phone is not set up for blogging. Therefore, this may be long and somewhat scattered. I apologize in advance.

Luke 5 12-16 tells the story of Jesus healing the leper. After healing him large crowds came with many sicknesses begging for healing. Now here is the important part, Jesus slipped away to pray. He did NOT heal them, at least not all of them. I tell you this because it hurts my heart when people tell me Jesus will heal me if I claim it or just ask for it. Do you think I have not begged for it? That many of my friends and family do not do the same on a daily basis? And it's okay. It's okay if He chooses not to heal me and it's okay for me to talk about it. God is still good and I trust that He has perfect reasoning for whatever He lets happen in my life. So please, if you know someone with cancer, offer to pray for them, or better yet, with them, but do not question their faith if they are not healed. These things are not up to us.

On another note, I am feeling pretty good lately. I've made some changes to my diet and have been more specific in my prayer requests regarding side effects and between the two, the three weeks since my last treatment haven't been too bad. My energy has been a little low the last week, but I'm hoping that is just from lack of sleep and the fact that I have five kids (that I know of!). School, dance, soccer, theater, plus homework keep the Boudah household very busy.

Today I am receiving my fifth course of carboplatin/taxotere and for those of you who do not know, it is working. I had a ct three weeks ago that showed a phenomenal response so now we pray that it keeps working at this rate. I am certainly hopeful! And for those of you in Huntsville, The Botanical Garden is planting it's garden of hope on Oct. 8th and dedicating it on the 11th. You should go by some time after that and check it out. It is so inspiring to read the stories and gain some hope :) AND the Liz Hurley Ribbon Run is Oct. 15 and Team Cristina is participating for the second year. I am looking forward to hanging out with my friends and family and raising money for a good cause. It is such a blessing to have such an outward show of love through these events, as well as through the cards, meals, thoughts, prayers, kind words and smiles from people I love and from the people who are touched by my story. May God bless each and every one of you.

On a final note, I may have cancer, but at least I don't live in Maine.