Rejoice always; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. I Thess. 5:16-18

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

fear and waiting in Huntsville, Alabama

This is my prayer today:

Lord,
There are so many scriptures regarding waiting, waiting on you, and here we are again....waiting. I so wish I could wait without fear, in perfect peace, but today I am struggling. Intellectually, Lord, I know you have a plan and you will take care of my family if I get to go home. Intellectually, I know that the test hasn't even been run yet and it could be nothing. And yet I feel as if a cloud has settled upon me and I cannot see the light. I ask that you shine your light into my heart and into my home. I ask that you will guard my heart and mind with your peace and restore my joy, for I have much to be joyful for! I pray that I can focus my energy on others in need, instead of my own selfish worries. I pray that you will remove the spirit of doubt that seems to have invaded my home and replace it with a Spirit of Faith. I can't stop thinking that I do not worship a God of fear and anxiety and I feel guilty and faithless. Please restore me oh Lord. Lift me up into the Heavenly places and give me strength to encourage others as so many have tried to do for me lately. I am so tired. You promise in Isaiah 40 that " those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired; they will walk and not become weary." I claim this promise for me and mine today! You have poured your blessings upon me and I thank you for them. I thank you for the love and reminders of love you have blessed me with in the last 8 months. I thank you for this outlet and pray that anyone reading this will not think less of me for my feelings or you for your answers.
I offer this up to you in the Name of your most precious Son...

Psalm 34: 17-18
The righteous cry, and the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

5 comments:

  1. Cristina, you are always in my prayers. I'm praying for "sunshine in your soul" as well as sunshine in your physical world.

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  2. What a beautiful prayer! I think many of of could pray this same prayer for our own struggles. What an encouragement you are in your own fear. Thank you so much for sharing! We pray with you daily.
    *hugs*

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  3. It breaks my heart to know you and your family are going through such a difficult time, and not one of you "deserves" it any more than any of the rest of us. But God honors those who honor Him, and we KNOW He will never leave you and yours to suffer alone.

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  4. Praying for you.. I know God will give you the peace that he always seems to reach down and hand us in the time of need. As I was praying this morning I ask for something just anything to let me know that he still hears my prayers, and that he still loves me. This is the verse that my Bible opened to

    1 John 5:14-15 (King James Version)

    14 And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us:

    15 And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.

    He is listening and he knows the needs.

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  5. Think less of you - no way! Sounds like you are seeking Him in your trials just like He would want. If only I could do the same! Thanks for your words of faith and encouragement. You are in our prayers daily.

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